I make You the Centre Of My Life...

whoa... time does fly... in just a blink of an eye, we're steping into a New Year again, 2006!! thinking back, i thank God for the different events that took place in my life this year... just soooo many wonderful things... 2005 has really been the year that impacted my life most!! opening up to friends is something that has made this year even more memorable... i rmb in the past, i never did open my life, my feelings, my thoughts, blah blah blah to anybody... but this year, it feels so good not to bottle anymore things... in fact, i think i even released most of those burdens to Him already, with the help of friends and youths of course... =) thanks everybody!!!

one of those burden was the fact that i wanted to get into a JC real badly, but a friend spoke to me about it, somewhere in march, i think, but her words would constantly ring in my head... and i realised that the only reason why i wanted to go into JC was because i was proud... i wanted to "save face", be known as the "smarter ones".... i was influenced by peer pressure, hence my ridiculous thinkings... but when i got into poly... like RP, i faced people whom i actually looked down upon, but it was a time when i had to get my mind-set straightened out... it took me quite a couple of months to realise that poly isn't that bad and that i know that i would cope in JC lah... lol... but yah... so hence my decision to stay in RP... YEAH!!! anyway, spend so much money already on the poly studies... going bankrupt soon lah...

anyways, yah, 2005 has been a memorable year for me and i thank everybody that has made it possible... all my friends, leaders, youth, pastors, god-brothers, god-sisters and of course, my family!!! =)

hey pple... like what the title says,

BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!!

have you ever wondered... what if there was a christmas that you did not celebrate, did not give and receive a single present.... not a single card was written for you, not a single form of life on that day itself... What if...

there's just so many things... so many "what if"s... and well honestly, i think that pple would have lost the joy of christmas. honestly, pple look forward to christmas just because it is an occasion where you can bless every and any body and get blessed by others as well... and it is because it all happens on one particular day... christmas...

i've always wondered... what if there was no christmas... as in, would pple stop writting notes/ cards to bless others??? would pple stop buying presents for one another??? would pple just lose it just because there is no particular dedicated to bless others??? well... i myself do not know the answer... so go think about it...

To a particular god-brother...
you know who you are... i've read your blog... and i know that tough times do hit us every now and then, but never dwell on them... you have been through that experience, so learn from it... don't dwell on it, but learn from it... BTW... i was thinking about this (the entry) when i just read your blog and decided to blog it in! =)

Brian, you're a St. Bernard!

No bones about it, you're a dedicated, trustworthy St. Bernard. Loyal and good-hearted, you're as reliable as they come. Your naturally protective personality is reflected in the way you treat people close to you. Sheltering your nearest and dearest from harm (or bad news, for that matter) is high on your priority list. That attitude earns you lots of gold stars, not to mention respect. People admire your strong morals — and how well you stick to them! Focused, steadfast, and determined, you always aim to please. It's a breed like yours that makes the world a better place — woof!

thinking hard, i realised that the list of pple of importance in my life will carry on to grow non stop... in fact, i think that there's too many for me to write them down... everyday, i rmb somebody who is not on the list and i keep adding them... and if i keep adding one everyday for like a year, then i have over 350 pple important to me lor... lol... and it's tough to keep "refreshing" cos it's all the way at the bottom... ok... i know, not a good excuse, but it's tiring and taxing... so, i've decided to take down the link under "links"... like duh... haha... k, dots... aniwaez, just know that there are many pple out there who are of importance to me... especially those from church, and even more so to my God-brothers and God-sisters.... there's like so many lah... haha... but it's a joy... especially to see them grow... =) yuppz... i hold many pple dear to my heart and yes, i care for them a lot!!! ok...

now, i'm gonna blog about the day... i started sleepng in the morning like from 4am... til like 8am... cos my brother set the alarm clock, and being the lightest sleeper, i woke up and switched it off before waking my brother to go for tuition... then i went back to sleep at like 8.15am... then at 9am, my other brother set the alarm clock to go meet his friends for a movie, so i woke up, switched the alarm off, and not knowing who set the alarm, asked both my brothers left, but since nobody reponded, i just carried on sleeping... then after that, my brother woke up and since he was supposed to meet his friends at 10am, and the time was like... 9.45 am already... haha... and he was like making super a lot of noise lor... so i woke up and only slept again at 11am til 1pm... haha... but still, since it was not a good rest, i'm like having this headache now...

aniwaez... today, went to Orchard to see different ones perform for the Narnia thingy... like road show like that... haha... met my mei there after her shift... which mei?? belinda!!! haha... sad lah... never see her act... sobbs... missed a great act.... *sigh*.... kk... then aloysius and i went to take a walk down wisma, taka and then we came back, then aloysius went to "disturb" sandra at her station....k, dots... then aloy's friend came, and we watched the dancers, jo teh, dannae, belinda and charles, dance on stage... FOR FREE...haha... dots... then aloy, his friend, charles and me went to food republic for dinner, before charles and i went back so that charles can dance again... haha... OH YAH... and at wisma, i saw 2 youths, a guy and a gal... shalln't name who.... but they were together walking around... haha... dunno if there's anything between them i dunno... haha... kk... where was i... yah, so i went back and i shared proper dinner with charles, cos we only had dessert at food republic... yah... then they did their dance... then after that, was another dance before a group named A to J went on stage to sing christmas songs... they sang song by Avalon and some other more traditional ones... then the dancers danced again... haha... then jo teh dissapeared... charles went to aloy's house with aloy and company, then i went into the main tent with dannae... pple who saw us had some misconceptions... haha... so we went through the "tour" together with another group of pple... and belinda was inside waiting for us... was quite entertaining... haha... and then we were done after like 20 minutes??? haha... but belinda had to stay inside... then dannae's sister came and they left, so i talked with sandra and waited for belinda, then belinda, her friend, sean ryan and i went for a drink before heading home... yah, that was my day...

let's see... what should i blog about sparks... hm.... i took photos, camera died, borrowed raine's camera, then took photos, then it ended.... haha.... that's all...

after sparks, went to macs with the P6s... actually, they went first then i went... after that, spoke to some friends.... settled some small issues, then spole with my mei... Riel... shalln't say anything about it here.... then after that, took a bus home.... *sigh* i think i was depressed that day... dunno why too.... just thinking back about what took place that day, i feel depressed again... i dunno why, so dun ask... *sigh*

i think i'm not in the mood to blog... ...

i've been tagged... unfortunately... and i shall try to be participative... yah... like, dots...

Rules of the game:
1. Post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself.
2. At the end, list the names of 5 people whom you want next to do this, and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED!" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.

1) I prefer to mix around with girls rather than guys. / I'm more comfortable mixing with girls.
2) I'm a jack of all trade, master of none. (I play the piano, guit, drums, I can sing, but I'm lousy.)
3) I like yatching.
4) I took Pure English Lit. for my O' level, when I hate to read, failed it and retook it.
5) I like scuba diving.

kk... I think these are wierd enough... haha...

pple who will be doing next...
1. Isaac Christian Wong
2. Michelle Lee
3. Jasmine Choe
4. Francesca
5. Danielle

dun read if you think you'll be stumbled... to read, pls highlight it... it's in white... but if you somehow, still read it and got stumbled... pls look for me... seriously...

kk... how should i begin... i honestly dunno... well... certain things happened today... miscommunication and misunderstanding... but with my parents, it's close to impossible to patch things up and clear it up... cos it'll lead to greater misunderstanding... so i'd rather leave it hanging... anyway... reflecting on my past 2 blog entries... it made me think... why did i blog what i blogged?? any reasons??? i know it's definately not to put others on the spot to get into the list... or disencourage those whose names ore not on the list... *otherwise, it'll be stumbling already*

i've been thinking for the past 3 hours or so... well... honestly, these are the pple that make me want to carry on with life and i want to be a blessing to them... minister to them, comfort them, support them, pray for/ with them, see them grow into the person of destiny... and so on... but when i think deeper into it... if you were to remove all these pple from my life, i would have given up living long ago... yes, i admit that i was close to doing some stupid things in life, but... these pple are the ones that give me the strength to live on... and hang on... seriously... though i love my family and they play an important part of my life/ growth, i think that i'll be able to live on my own... *if i had financial support... i dun intend to work yet* and well... though i have friends in school and so on... i never do develop a close friendship/ relationship with them... *refer to my entry on friends... about the different definations* they are just aquantences to me... i dun really treat them as friends... i mean... yah, they're my "friends" but i just treat them as classmates... not friends... out of school, they are just like any other strangers that i have seen before... yah... but these pple in my list just give me a motivation to see them grow in the Lord and it gives me a sense of achievement that God used me to help nature them... like... i love to be used by Him lah... in any and everyway... but other than serving Him and letting Him use me... i dunno what my life is for... He has yet to show me my purpose of life... sometimes i just wonder... has He forgotten me??? but then again... i'm glad to have friends as these...

ok... i think that's enough said... if i feel i should say more... then i'll blog again... and dun forget to look for me if you really got stumbled by my blog... especially those on that list!!!

well... had a fun week of jam... jammed on wed, thurs, today and tmr... well... shall talk about today's one... the JC2 weren't there due to some bbq or something they had... (mad, please tell me if i got it correct... my memory fails me...) anyway... there were only a few of us there today as the JC2s and the Sec 4s have been dominating the chapel the past few days... so today, there was Brandon, Hannah, Michelle, Jas, Zach, Marcus, Yvette (who only came for a short while... like 30 to 45 minutes) and lastly, me... dots... then halfway, PDa, Bro Vic and PGary dominated the stage and we did some crazy jamming... such as ... haha... shalln't say... haha... dots.... but it was great fun... then, out of nowhere, josh walked into the chapel with PDa!!! yeah... it's been at least 4 to 5 months since i last saw him... haha... looking good bro!! (no matter how short your hair is... ) yah, so he joined us and sang together with us.... then we had dinner.... sambal Sting Ray, sambal Kan Kong and the famous mutton soup together with rice... nice meal... but i must admit... growing kinda sick of that food...

anyway, this entry is just to make the blog alive... haha...