Sunday, August 24, 2008
Army Daze
man... tough days ahead.... i know it for sure... it's not some normal camp.... i mean, the welfare is extremely good... there's so many small things to be thankful for, but the training is so so tough.... then again, it's recognised as the toughest, not including those which needs to sign on, but this is really absurb... i don't know if i can take it / hold it much longer....
i hate the spiritual climate there..... i hate the training and disciplines... it's tough, not just physically, but mentally too... it's so mentally straneous....
afterall, i've been through all these in my 4 years of Marist NPCC... it's just the (pls pardon my language.... sorry) same shit, different people, different location, etc... and well, i don't know if i can pull through... i'm physically weak, and i won't say that i'm emotionally / mentally strong either...... spiritually, i'm hanging on quite well, i think.... then again, it should be SO I THINK.... it's just so tiring to take our my bible to read.... nowadays, my TAWG is spent just simply praying, and my prayer seems to keep on evolving around, "Lord, give me strength..."
sigh..... army just isn't a nice place to be in.... more so, ndu...
Lord, lead me, and i will go. if it is Your will that i complete the training and pass out as a diver, help me endure, give me the strength i need, help me shine YOUR light into the lives of the people around me, but if it is Your will that i do something else, let it be. tell me, show me, and i will follow You. i need You, Lord, more than ever, right now... In all things, let Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Amen.
i hate the spiritual climate there..... i hate the training and disciplines... it's tough, not just physically, but mentally too... it's so mentally straneous....
afterall, i've been through all these in my 4 years of Marist NPCC... it's just the (pls pardon my language.... sorry) same shit, different people, different location, etc... and well, i don't know if i can pull through... i'm physically weak, and i won't say that i'm emotionally / mentally strong either...... spiritually, i'm hanging on quite well, i think.... then again, it should be SO I THINK.... it's just so tiring to take our my bible to read.... nowadays, my TAWG is spent just simply praying, and my prayer seems to keep on evolving around, "Lord, give me strength..."
sigh..... army just isn't a nice place to be in.... more so, ndu...
Lord, lead me, and i will go. if it is Your will that i complete the training and pass out as a diver, help me endure, give me the strength i need, help me shine YOUR light into the lives of the people around me, but if it is Your will that i do something else, let it be. tell me, show me, and i will follow You. i need You, Lord, more than ever, right now... In all things, let Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Amen.
