Wednesday, April 05, 2006
random thoughts
at this time, my mind's hyper active, but not my body.... so what does that result in?? yupp, deep thoughts...
i've just been wondering... why do i always feel lonely?? and sometimes, when somebody invites me to join them do some stuff like maybe play basketball, i just don't want to... is it because i'm lazy to join them, or am i just anti-social?? the answer, i don't know... maybe it's both... sometimes, i wonder to myself... what did i do to cause the whole world to isolate me?? but then again... did i isolate myself from others?? i honestly don't know... maybe i just have too much time to think and i start thinking out of point... [BTW, if you see my in deep thoughts, make me snap out of it, or i might just utter rubbish at any point of time...] back to the point... at times, i hate the feeling of being alone, but sometimes, i get so used to it, that i want to be alone... does that make sense at all??? i'm lost in my own thoughts...
and well, another majorority of my thoughts fall under the catergory "what if"... i'm sure many people including you and me have those thoughts... like what if...... then how would that change your life, or how would that change other people's life... i've tried to stay away from that cos i know that most of the time, it makes us dwell on our past and stops us from advancing... but this time round, it's not about the past, but more of the future... i dunno how to say, but i just keep thinking... and thinking more... and thinking deeper... and after like 15 minutes to 30 minutes of thinking, i have to concoiusly make myself stop thinking, otherwise it'll take forever... but yah, it just makes me think... especially when i'm not helping anybody in studies, my mind just want to be alive, so it just thinks and thinks... i don't even know what i'm talking... i shall stop here and just drift into thoughts once again...
i've just been wondering... why do i always feel lonely?? and sometimes, when somebody invites me to join them do some stuff like maybe play basketball, i just don't want to... is it because i'm lazy to join them, or am i just anti-social?? the answer, i don't know... maybe it's both... sometimes, i wonder to myself... what did i do to cause the whole world to isolate me?? but then again... did i isolate myself from others?? i honestly don't know... maybe i just have too much time to think and i start thinking out of point... [BTW, if you see my in deep thoughts, make me snap out of it, or i might just utter rubbish at any point of time...] back to the point... at times, i hate the feeling of being alone, but sometimes, i get so used to it, that i want to be alone... does that make sense at all??? i'm lost in my own thoughts...
and well, another majorority of my thoughts fall under the catergory "what if"... i'm sure many people including you and me have those thoughts... like what if...... then how would that change your life, or how would that change other people's life... i've tried to stay away from that cos i know that most of the time, it makes us dwell on our past and stops us from advancing... but this time round, it's not about the past, but more of the future... i dunno how to say, but i just keep thinking... and thinking more... and thinking deeper... and after like 15 minutes to 30 minutes of thinking, i have to concoiusly make myself stop thinking, otherwise it'll take forever... but yah, it just makes me think... especially when i'm not helping anybody in studies, my mind just want to be alive, so it just thinks and thinks... i don't even know what i'm talking... i shall stop here and just drift into thoughts once again...
# posted by babyflyaway// @ 12:52 AM 
